An exciting and terrifying thing happened, I won a critique of my work. Which is amazing because I hadn’t even
Which is amazing because I hadn’t even realised I’d been entered into the competition until I got an email saying I’d won and because I’m genuinely interested in hearing what the person doing the critique has to say.
However, I am also unbelievably terrified because I am going to have to hand over my work to someone and I’ve never had to do that before. It’s only three chapters worth but still, this feels like a very big step.
I know that I should see it as a good thing but there is also this plaguing self-doubt that keeps creeping up on me. It doesn’t help that I haven’t finished writing the chapters that I want to send, it’s a slow work in progress and I have been far too distracted lately.
Which means I’ll be sending this along after very little overall editing which also makes me nervous. I keep feeling that I should be able to put all those negative thoughts behind me and just get on with it, what’s the worst that could happen?
She could rip my work to shreds and tell me that I’m flogging a dead horse, it’s not like I’ve not said that to myself plenty times over and even if it does go terribly it’s not as if anyone else has to know. I can find out when I’m alone so that if I feel the need to burst into tears no one will then ask me what’s wrong which always makes the tears come quicker and heavier.
It’s still scary though. Handing your work over to someone who has already published work is daunting, but when you’ve read their work it definitely feels even scarier.
I’ll have to pull myself together and just do it, but does anyone have any advice?
Written as part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group.